Emotional bullshit behind the cut.
Everything is fucked. My head's in knots again and I can't unravel it. I just want to get pissed and not feel any of it, just happy or numbness, but there's no one to get drunk with. I have no friends really, I'm just an extra. If everything else goes to shit I'm the one to call, and it ain't to get drunk or really do anything. And I keep pushing people away to see if they'd fight for me but they never do. I hate that I invest every fucking shred of me into my friend/s but no one does the same for me. I say I fucking love you and you fuck off. I don't know what I did wrong, I just want someone who needs me as much as I need them and tells the fucking truth. All this silence is doing my head in. It feels like I can't get any positive energy, even from my parents.
"Clean up your room, it looks like a pigsty in here!"
And then if I do it's like it never existed and that she couldn't care less if I did do it or not. Not one comment just another problem needing to be fixed; wash your clothes, do the dishes, get your life together.
Everything is fucked. My head's in knots again and I can't unravel it. I just want to get pissed and not feel any of it, just happy or numbness, but there's no one to get drunk with. I have no friends really, I'm just an extra. If everything else goes to shit I'm the one to call, and it ain't to get drunk or really do anything. And I keep pushing people away to see if they'd fight for me but they never do. I hate that I invest every fucking shred of me into my friend/s but no one does the same for me. I say I fucking love you and you fuck off. I don't know what I did wrong, I just want someone who needs me as much as I need them and tells the fucking truth. All this silence is doing my head in. It feels like I can't get any positive energy, even from my parents.
"Clean up your room, it looks like a pigsty in here!"
And then if I do it's like it never existed and that she couldn't care less if I did do it or not. Not one comment just another problem needing to be fixed; wash your clothes, do the dishes, get your life together.
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